Many of the victims were alone when they passed leaving their loved ones with feelings of guilt and remorse about not being able to be with them in their final moments, something Jessica is grappling with. She tells us she wonders if she had been with her mom and dad while they were sick if they could have possibly fought harder.
"I couldn't do anything, I felt so helpless," she says of having her parents in two different hospitals and being unable to see either of them. She lost both her mom and dad within a few weeks of each other and then her aunt as well. "Never in my wildest, scariest dreams did I imagine I would lose them both at the same time, Jessica says, explaining she wishes she had told them to take the virus more seriously and not interact with anyone outside of their household.
She says it's important to remember how much Jessica loved and cared for her parents and notes that feeling guilty can drain so much of someone's energy during a situation like this.
"Love is eternal," Dr. Taylor says, suggesting that after losing a loved one, we should focus on the time we did spend with them and not the instances when you were apart. She also notes saying goodbye, in any way (a letter, a prayer, saying it aloud after their passing) can be very helpful. She encourages Jessica to remember that someone's life is more significant than their death.
The psychiatrist notes feelings of anger, guilt, and remorse after any death are expected and normal, and she says in time Jessica will come to a place of acceptance.