My sense of style is layed back most of the time I am a 45 year old and have been married for 30 years we have four  children and two grandkids. I love being a grandma but the best part I get to be funny and make them laugh and not hear mom don't do that your to old. It makes me feel good to do the crazy things I do with my grandkids like play in there kiddie pool or go down the slip and slide in the yard and blowing the bubbles that's the best. I have gone through a lot of medical things but it's my kids that keep me going life is good when you have family. I was a pro bowler on the ladies pro tour so after I left the tour I started coaching kids in the sport of bowling . I have always loved working with kids. I also love taking pictures of my kids and grandkids . I have a lot of pictures where I have chased the rainbow and got the best rainbow picture I also love the beach and walking on the beach looking for shells or watching the sun go down over the water. In my life I have been through the good and the bad and sometimes you think how will I ever get through all this ? I go back and look at my pictures of my family my grandkids that beach or sunset and I close my eyes and things just don't look so bad . My grandma always said fight the battles that are worth fighting and let the small stuff go. I try and live by those words but sometimes life just gives you a curve and its hard to get around. Like Having a plastic surgeon mess you up like the one who did a number on me. More on my story at another time its very hard to even think about want I have been through and what I will always have to go through because of the plastic surgeon.( The rest of the story) On March 19 of 07 I went to a plastic surgeon all I wanted was a tummy tuck but this doctor sweet talked me in to more than that. When going to his off in Chicago I was thinking it must be a big hospital let me explain when I first met this doctor it was at a doctors office near where I lived where he shaired a office space 2 times a month. He told me the surgery would be in a surgery hospital in chicago I was happy and could not wait I had wanted this sence my last child was born in 1993 so on March 27 of 07 I will never forget this day I left home at 6am for chicago it turned out when I got there to the address he gave me it was a tall building on the top floor over a starbucks coffee shop her rents the top floor and calls it his surgery hospital center and little did I know this doctor had no hospital right at all. When I walked in everything told me to turn around and forget this but I wanted it so bad I went on in. I went in for tummy tuck breast lift arms-legs-back-butt ( lipo) I was in surgery almost 10 hours and I remember seeing 3 people total in the room the surgeon the doctor who put me to sleep and a helper when he was done the surgeon had left and I was wheeled in a wheel chair in front for all to see me to my  car and sent home. I had tubs hanging out of my sides my armes where bleeding like crazy and I look like someone beat me up with a base ball bat I was black and blue from top to bottom and he never did get to my back or legs because he said he never had anyone that big before and he could not turn me over. That in itself hurts and I still paid 21,500 even though he could not finish me . I guess its a good thing .  To make a long story short when I get to see my breast I wanted to die he cut off my areolas both sides took the fat from my stomach and put it into my breast sewed my areolas back but sewes them on to tight and cuts off all the blood flow around them, the skin died not just around the area but deep down they looked like someone burned my breast they where black all over and now very very deformed and scarred. This was not what he told me he was going to do I was in tears. And to top that in doing my tummy tuck he was cutting off my large over hang and went to far down he went past the fascia he tried to repair it and this he did not tell me.  Till one day I was having real bad pains in my lower left side and went to my own doctor he rushed me to the hospital with what turned out to be a hernia from some stitches the where used and they rubbed a hole causing a hernia. So back to the breast I felt a lump about a month after the surgery so I had a mammogram and they could not beleave their eyes all they could see is a black blob so they sent me in for a ultrasound they did not like what was there so they did a biopsy i was in so much pain they tried to give me a local but all the fat in my breast was just drinking up the local so I felt the hole thing that biopsy came back showing dead fat tissue it was painful because the skin was so thick and hard. They wanted me to come back at a later date to have another mammogram because I keep having things change in my breast so I go in and again they need to do an ultrasound this time they find 2 masses 2 different sizes and they told me that they are going to send me to surgery to have the mass removed and do the biopsy after that they were very concerned at this point and the next thing I know they are giving me a book on dealing with breast cancer so here.Please ladies check your doctors out. My family is the most important thing in my life my kids are the best. But things are just not the same for me or them anymore because of my surgery. Its hard to even look at myself when all I see is something out of a horror movie.