I am a smoker. I have smoked since I was 10 years old. I wasn't even done growing. I wish my life was different.
I am a smoker hater.
I like the smell of clean air and clean clothes and a clean NON smoking house or environment.
I like the way a non smoking person doesn't like smoke.
I like the way society has come together and proposed that smoking should be non existent.
Why can't I quit? Everyday I buy only one pack, because in my brain I am saying this will be my last pack, last cigarette, tomorrow I will start living a healthy smoke free existence.
Tomorrow comes and I am watching from the outside and my body is in auto drive. How can I find the strength to go day after day without going through the motions of smoking.
I have had my left kidney removed and was diagnosed with Renal Cell Carcinoma. I have had a brain aneurysm. Both of these problems were not diagnosed to have been caused from smoking, but smoking can be responsible for these two problems and why haven't I stopped smoking!
I tried to quit after reading "Million Little Pieces". I really related to the monster theory within the story. Smoking is my monster. It is killing my body.
Killing my body, you would think putting that out there is enough to make the brain say NO MORE.
I can only hope that I will succeed, before it is to late. I know many reformed non smokers, I know it is not easy. I want to have the strength to stop for good. I am not stupid. But I am stupid.
I really wish I never smoked that first cigarette and wish I could stop anyone from ever starting. Cigarettes are slow killers and they are in control of me.
I even paid to be hypnotized to stop and was totally ripped off. Maybe, just maybe a support group may help. I have never tried that. I'm shy so maybe an internet support group may help. Or not! I am willing to try. Any smokers out there?
Sadly, dreaming of the day I stop.
Cheri
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Oh you can do it you really should stop as you allready know . Have you tried that patch thing or the other new med that they have i cant remember the name of it ?? brain fog !! Just take it one day at a time . you have strength here we'll back ya up !!
lisa
I have been a smoker for over 40yrs,and it is so hard to quit.I have quit 2x's for a couple of years at a time then I either got stressed or something happened and I turned back to smoking.I would really like to stop myself but I guess I am not really ready yet,or I would.People who never smoked cannot understand how much control this has over your body.I use to drink alot in my younger days,but found that easy for me to quit.
If you are really ready,set a date and do it .Some find the pill Chantix has helped them.(but have bad side effects)Also on the Doctors Show they show this electric cigarette that many people say it's very good way to get off cigs.Hope this helps.
Good Luck.
Yvonne
I believe everyone has that moment when they know it is time to quit but not everyone does it. I still consider myself a smoker & it will be 21 years May 28. As any addiction it is one day at a time. My hubby is a 3 pack a day man. He has tried the patch, cold turkey & Chantix. Cold turkeye has lasted the longest at 1 year but he has an addictive personallity. I stopped when there was little help but I want you to know if you do go on a no smoking program & you work the program then you can do it. I worked in a bar while I quit smoking. Second hand smoke is just as bad but the stuff I was inhaling on my own was even worse. I did it by reducing my ciggies by 4% every 4 days & nothing to drink prior to smoking & nothing to smoke after eating for a marked period of tome. No getting up in the middle of the night for one either. Within 2 weeks into it, dpending how much you smoke, you will start having withdraws. I smoked 2 pack a day at work & 1 on my days off. I never thought I was addicted to them but that told me I was & glad I stuck it out. Everyone has bad days but you need to know that bad day is a good day with no smoking.
Good Luck. Can't wait to hear how you are doing. Elaine
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