Unfortunately my  motivation was the loss of my marriage and the beginning of my self worth.  I have lost alot of weight since last summer, just by having the huge support of my friends.  I started eating better and I started the P90X (which is not meant for everyone).  Keep your head up and you will be just fine.  Always remember that the most important person is "YOU"!

Hi and thank you! No you did not offend me at all. I actually stay home and was going to try and go back to school. As for not spending time with him, always. As for my cooking, he hasn't cooked since we moved in together and I love to cook. This is a life style he has known since he was young and doubt it will ever change, he tries to deny it all. When in fact I see it, saw pics text all of it, but all good. Yes! I do need to start doing for myself and get myself physically and emotionally better, but it's like my motivation has gone away and can't seem to do it right now for some reason. I feel lost and alone and at times don't feel I can do it alone! Still waiting for a miralce LOL. Again thank you for the kind words!

Thats also the thing! I have no friends out here anymore, because of the crap he does and says to them. He's just a down right nasty disrespectful man. My son had the P90X and was going yo borrow from him, but my daughter lost it in her move (bummer). Then bone head here bought the Insanity dvd set and OMG that is not for me yet at the moment, Tried it and thought I was going to die! I guess mt self esteem and eveythong with it went out the door and can't seem to get it back. Grrr

Hey Michelle,

It will come in time.  Believe me I was going through my spell for a full year before I decided to make a move and do it for myself and my son.  I was married to an alcoholic and he was very jealous and mentally abusive.  He never stepped out (or at least that I am aware of), unless it was with his bottle.  I always allowed him the freedom to be a person and I got nothing in return.  One night when I actually had my phone in my hand to call 911 if needed, because he got in my face, did I make the decision.  The full year before this I lived in misery, had high blood pressure and was put out of work with stress.  My performance was hitting rock bottom.  I hated my life and couldn't have been bothered getting up in the morning. 

It takes what seems like forever, but I promise it will come.  Look in the mirror every morning and tell yourself that "You are worth it and that you deserve everything you ever could possibly want".  Oh yes and give a great big beautiful smile 

I just read your post and I feel like I am looking in the mirror...WOW.  Whenever you need a boost or a "Friend" even though I am miles away, just give me a shout. 

HI MICHELLE, I only wish the best for you,but I have basically told you before the same thing that Bandido has just told you.No one on this site or any other site can help you all we can do is listen and say what we would do or mabey even did do in your situtation if we have ever been in one like yours and I am sure a few of us have,I know I have been.But sweetheart if YOU don't do something yourself to help your own situtation then NOTHING we say can help you!!!!!To be honest this is something that you have to act on not just read advise from others everyday and do nothing,YOU HAVE TO ACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I hope your not upset with me,I like you and we have talked about everyday and I don't want to make you mad I just want to be as honest as I can with you,so ACT<ACT<ACT<ACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Jamie

HI MICHELLE, I only wish the best for you,but I have basically told you before the same thing that Bandido has just told you.No one on this site or any other site can help you all we can do is listen and say what we would do or mabey even did do in your situtation if we have ever been in one like yours and I am sure a few of us have,I know I have been.But sweetheart if YOU don't do something yourself to help your own situtation then NOTHING we say can help you!!!!!To be honest this is something that you have to act on not just read advise from others everyday and do nothing,YOU HAVE TO ACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I hope your not upset with me,I like you and we have talked about everyday and I don't want to make you mad I just want to be as honest as I can with you,so ACT<ACT<ACT<ACT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Jamie

Sad part of it all! My youngest is going through the same thing with her boyfriend and it's killing me!!! But she's still young and has alot to look forward to and I'm trying to work on me and her at the same time. I would bring her here, but it would make things worse and I'm trying to get away from this myself!