I am just sooo stressed out !!! I have been this way for about a week now and have needed extra meds to calm me down. Was rushed through an appt today so I didnt bring it up/no time to. I'm just frustrated with things and anxious and just angry inside...I was doing ok, until today when i feltl like I'm gonna snap. I can email because it doesnt have to do with people in front of me, but that is about it.
I was reading a book--kept falling asleep (everytime I do that I hear voices--when i am overtired) so gave up on that, so irritated. No matter how much I sleep I have a hard time reading. I need life at a slow pace and you just dont get that in New England. Cant move either...no $ to. I just want pple to leave me alone. I want the email --it actually relaxes me. Just for some reason today I can not deal with people in person, feel like life I can't handle without lots of medication to calm me down (thank goodness I have extras) which will get me through the day. I just cant deal. Feel very angry but dont know at what. Just soo stressed out. My life is so simple though the littlest things still stress me out. And thing is I need to stay away from that if I dont want hallucinations to come back. Then I'd need to rearrange meds, when we now have a perfect combination to keep me stable and sane and functionable. This just totally sucks and I do not need it right now. Thanks for listening.
Melissa.








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Hi Melissa,
I hope your not still stressed out. I am on medications for some mental health problems myself. Just stay calm and try to just like I do. My daughter just turned 18 on the 21st of Feb she is a handful for she has CP, ADHD, Diabeties so you can just guess how come I have so much stress and all that happy stuff. Plus with my mom we aren't getting no answers so that is another problem on my hands. Just keep your mind at ease and see how much this will help.
Thank you...I've calmed down a bit but am still very irritable. I know I shouldn't be so stressed because ie, I don't have kids to worry about, but other things just get to me. I do better at night than during the day. I'll see if tomorrow is any better. Thank you for responding.
Melissa.
I hope I didn't stress you out. You help me so much by being there for me. Is there anything I can do for you? I am worried because I have not heard from you and I work friday. You have my cell so if you need to talk please call. Sometimes I can talk at work when the morning rounds are over. (after 1000 am my time) You have been doing so well. Is it anger at something or frustration re. the meds. or both> Call me anytime you need to talk.
Hey Mellie,
Glad to hear you are able to take charge and have calmed down. You know what you ARE allowed to be stressed regardless of if you have kids or not. A little stress is great because it gets the blood pumping and the blood flowing. Just don't let it overwhelm you. If the emails stress you, then close your email account for the day and return to it when you're feeling more yourself.... I know I spend a lot of time on facebook and it can be very "consuming".... I sometimes let people know, I'm taking a hiatus, I won't be on and I do whatever comes to my mind to do that has nothing to do with the computer. Don't know if that helps or not. And you know when I actually call you :-) sometime in the future :-) ..... and if you aren't in the mood to talk, just tell me and I'll say "Okay."
Take care you!
ahem .... the blood pumping and the adrenaline flowing is what I meant to say hee hee hee
No, 1turkey1, you didn;t stress me out....I was glad to help...thanks for emailing me too. I appreciated that. I just had a bad day overall and really didn't write to anyone. I read everything just didnt write back till later on in the day. Was too anxious to write and didnt want to deal with anything in the day. Thank you for the offer to call--I appreciate that a lot. I am not angry at anyone, just feel angry in general...hate not being able to pinpoint things too. The meds are stable now so they aren't the problem, that I do know. I'll call you if I need to, thanks.
Melissa.
Hi Ali, I just can not allow myself to become overtired.......it has been happening a lot lately and I need to be careful and pay more attention to that. That will solve the hearing voices problem. That is clear to me to do. Im not afraid of them but afraid of what happens if I hear them too much. I don't want kids either at this point in my life because it is too much for me to handle. You're right, the world is a zoo out there.
Melissa.
Hey Spry,
The one thing I do love to do is be on the computer doing whatever ie email, this Board, other Boards, etc no matter what my mood. I can do it without directly dealing with people in front of me when that is a problem. Thanks for the encouragement. Am doing ok today, not myself completely, but better than yesterday.
Melissa.
Ali, that was nice what you said about 1turkey1. She is very generous. You're right, the voices can't do anything to me--but it is not that I am afraid of them. They stress me out because years ago when the voices started this is how it happened, little by little. If you knew what I went through I think it might stress you out also. I've had an extremely hard 6 years of time from 2003-2009 or so, where the voices were "bad" and "good". During that time I don't remember much, except certain things at random. I can't physically and mentally handle ANY type of what happened agaiin. So when I hear things and see things that arent there I tend to get nervous.
Melissa.
I hope you're feeling better today and you are well rested now. When I'm angry, sometimes dancing and singing to very loud music helps me get over it and forget about it for a while. If I'm too upset to dance, I'll exercise to loud music to burn off the adrenaline. I'm not trying to give you tips or suggestions, I just wanted to share a few of my experiences with you while reading about your experiences.
Thanks Breee, I really appreciate sharing your experiences. I am more calmed down today but am taking it very easy--more than i usually do. I am just letting myself sleep so much, which is probably the best for now. Thanks again for writing.
Melissa.
Hi Melissa, I don't know where your head is concerning prayer, but I can tell you that it does work to ask God for help, especially when dealing with life's stressors. These are critical times hard to deal with and we all need help getting by. I certainly don't want to preach to you or anyone here. It's just a suggestion, he's there and he wants to help us if we just ask for it. This is one of my favorite Scriptures, especially when I'm feeling stress, and I have it too. Philippians 5:6 Do not be anxious over anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication along with thanksgiving let your petitions be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God that excels all thought will guard your hearts and your mental powers by means of Christ Jesus.
Hoe you're doing better!
Why were you sad?
Melissa.
Bayhorselady, Thank you..I am doing better today. And yes, prayer does help.
Melissa.
I hope you are feeling better!
xox
Thank you Sue, I am .... I am still having my days but overall doing better. Thanks for asking :).
Melissa.
Thank you Sue, I am .... I am still having my days but overall doing better. Thanks for asking :).
Melissa.
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