A little while ago I had a big breakdown/meltdown. I was so upset over something minimal, but it had hit me the wrong way. I got to sleep and slept about an hour or so, waking up totally drained. I realized then that I am in a big depression right now. I didn't realize it until I woke up, because when I got up I was not only drained but depressed. Not depressed from the minor situation, but overall. This has happened before. I have no extra medication to help boost my mood so I think I'll have to suffer through it thiut meds this time. Sometimes the DR can alter a med, but this time the meds cant be touched. I can usually hold myself together but today was another situation.
Just needed to vent. Thanks for reading.
Melissa.
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Melissa- I am the guardian/caretaker of a family member with a chemical imbalance/mental disorder and, therefore, I have been a first-hand witness to the feeling of torture that is endured by someone who is "trapped" within their own mind. I also know that it is often difficult to find the words of encouragement to offer to someone who is struggling with their illness (whether mental or physical) , but I sincerely hope that with doctors, medication, and therapy, you are able to cope with your situation in a way that will help you to find some relief and peace from within. Take good care of yourself.
Thanks lucy. Right now I am feeling a little better ... have slept a couple times since writing this and I think I will be ok. Thanks for the support.
Melissa.
Melissa- Hang in there. Just wanted to write and tell you I'm praying for you. Take care of you. :-)
miley
Thanks miley. I appreciate that! I am doing better now than I was yesterday. I was able to sleep a lot yesterday after the incident happened, and even though I am not completely over it now I'm much better than yesterday.
Melissa.
Hi Melissa, Hope you are feeling alot better today. Take care of yourself. I am saying a prayer for your speedy recovery...... Jane
Thanks Jane, I am doing better today. It might take a few more days but I'll be ok. I took some Benadryl to try and break up the mood yesterday and it gave me a good headstart. Benadryl was the only thing I could think of that made me sleepy. I can still tell that I am not 100% but in a couple of days I hope to be back to myself. The emotion part hasnt come back yet and I have no affect right now. Hoping that will be back in the next few days.
It helps to have a place to vent, and friends to email with etc. I absolutely do not like when people avoid me and are walking on eggshells around me when I have a breakdown. Yes, I have a mental illness, but that doesnt make me any different from others in terms of having a breakdown, what happened the other day. Others have them too and they aren't distanced from people. I seem to be a lot. So I hesitate writing blogs like this. However I needed to just vent and did so.
Melissa.
Hi Melissa, I myself is not into writing blogs. I had to start because I loved the doctors Show and it was ruined by adding co-hosts JM and WW. You can vent to me anytime. lol Hope you are feeling much better today
Jane.
Thank you Jane :)
Melissa.
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