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Today

A little while ago I had a big breakdown/meltdown.  I was so upset over something minimal, but it had hit me the wrong way.  I got to sleep and slept about an hour or so, waking up totally drained.  I realized then that I am in a big depression right now.  I didn't realize it until I woke up, because when I got up I was not only drained but depressed.  Not depressed from the minor situation, but overall. This has happened before.  I have no extra medication to help boost my mood so I think I'll have to suffer through it thiut meds this time.  Sometimes the DR can alter a med, but this time the meds cant be touched.  I can usually hold myself together but today was another situation.

Just needed to vent.  Thanks for reading. 

Melissa.

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lucylamb27

Melissa- I am the guardian/caretaker of a family member with a chemical imbalance/mental disorder and, therefore, I have been a first-hand witness to the feeling of torture that is endured by someone who is "trapped" within their own mind.  I also know that it is often difficult to find the words of encouragement to offer to someone who is struggling with their illness (whether mental or physical) , but I sincerely hope that with doctors, medication, and therapy, you are able to cope with your situation in a way that will help you to find some relief and peace from within.  Take good care of yourself.       

melissaw72

Thanks lucy.  Right now I am feeling a little better ... have slept a couple times since writing this and I think I will be ok.  Thanks for the support.

Melissa.

miley

Melissa- Hang in there. Just wanted to write and tell you I'm praying for you. Take care of you. :-)

                                                miley

melissaw72

Thanks miley.  I appreciate that!  I am doing better now than I was yesterday.  I was able to sleep a lot yesterday after the incident happened, and even though I am not completely over it now I'm much better than yesterday. 

Melissa.

JS5045

Hi Melissa,  Hope you are feeling alot better today. Take care of yourself. I am saying a prayer for your speedy recovery......                     Jane

melissaw72

Thanks Jane,  I am doing better today.  It might take a few more days but I'll be ok.  I took some Benadryl to try and break up the mood yesterday and it gave me a good headstart.  Benadryl was the only thing I could think of that made me sleepy.  I can still tell that I am not 100% but in a couple of days I hope to be back to myself.  The emotion part hasnt come back yet and I have no affect right now.  Hoping that will be back in the next few days.

It helps to have a place to vent, and friends to email with etc.  I absolutely do not like when people avoid me and are walking on eggshells around me when I have a breakdown.  Yes, I have a mental illness, but that doesnt make me any different from others in terms of having a breakdown, what happened the other day.  Others have them too and they aren't distanced from people.  I seem to be a lot.  So I hesitate writing blogs like this.  However I needed to just vent and did so.

Melissa.

JS5045

Hi Melissa,  I myself is not into  writing blogs. I had to start because I loved the doctors Show and it was ruined by  adding co-hosts JM and WW.  You can vent to me anytime. lol Hope you are feeling much better  today

Jane.                                         

 

melissaw72

Thank you Jane :)

Melissa.

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