About me where do I start. I am from Indianapolis,Indiana born and raised, as of May of last year I moved to Southern ,Indiana for a change come to find out I don't like it down here at all and I really want to go home. I am retired from the Culinary Arts field I was forced to retired early due to my health, yet I still do catering part time. I have many interests ranging from Music. Poetry, Suspense Novels, Cooking, Baking, Some Crafts, I have collected Marilyn Monroe Memorblia for many years. And let us not forget my favorite interest of all and would be my little mini dachshund sophie lynne. My sense of style is a challenge at the moment simply because, 20 years ago I found out I had thyroid disease which runs in my family, so I wish I had been diagnosed at an earlier age. That said thepast 20years I have been battling weight gain weight loss, regain it has been such a roller coaster ride for me so clothing for me has not been first and for most so I just dress very casually in nice pants and jeans whatever is comfortable. I did go back to school 2 years ago and finished my education so I bought new clothes but they unfortunately were the same thing casual dress clothes. No pretty bras any more, nice fitting jeans, or low cut blouses classy but sexy. I am 50 years old now and I suppose I am going through that phase in my life where I despertley need to change things in my life or I am not going to have one. Actually for a long time now I have wished that I could have weight loss surgery but unfortunately 5 years ago I hit bottom emotionally and lost everything. 3 Years ago I got a second chance at life to back to school get my life back on track emotionally and financally now I believe that I may have found my one true love the man I was meant to be with forever. And because of that it has motivated me to do something drastic about the way Ilook and feel about myself as a person from the inside out. I have done many years of soul searching and it always comes back to you have to love yourself before you can love another. That said I have made strides to approach weight loss surgery.I have the insurance now and the motivation, all I need is the Doctor's to sign the release forms. I weight 258.6 lbs this very day, bmi is 41.7 % and I am 5'6. I have high cholestrol I am on zocor and I take tricor as well. Plus my primary physician said Iam on my way to having diabetes no not me this has to stop. I love myself to much, I have a grown son and grandchildren and my one true love and by god I am changing my life so I can live for me and them....