So, tody is one of my depression days. I did get my car into a shop that I trusted. I figured that I would be able to pay the money to get it fixed, and still have some left over to go toward my mom's trip to Florida next month. Why did I ever think something would go my way for a change? The person doing my car called and said another part was needed for my car. I went over it with them and saw that they were right. I do know a little about cars. So, now I am down and angry about it. You see, I am about the only one that takes my mom back and forth to her appointments and her job. Some family members are willing to help, but not all the time like me. I do the shopping by bus, and pay the bills, on line if I can. I have friends that offer me a ride but most of the time, I have been making my way to and from work on my own. It's a four mile walk both ways, but I wasn't worried. Nope! I just knew my car would be ready by Wedsday. Nope!
To make it worst, I just had my hours cut on both my jobs! I only work eight hours on one, and 15 on the other this week and next week! So, we will be back to struggling to pay bills. This is the time I get frustrated wit myself for not doing better when I had the chance! I also get angry when I see how other people seem to have things laid in their laps. Where is my free car from Oprah or all expense paid vaction from Maury? You know, I really don't want to be given anything but a chance! I believe in my talent as a writer. I don't care if my books never make the best seller list, just as long as I make enough to support my family and to keep on writing. My Mom deserves a better, easier life now. And for once, I am being selfish and saying so do I. I don't think God gave me the gift of writing for nothing, I can't and will not believe it. So, tonight, I turn off all my lights and open my blinds and lay down on my bed so I can watch the stars, or clouds, and wonder how long can this kind of luck go on?
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I don't think you are being selfish. You are a strong lady...something to be proud of!
Melissa.
Annie,
Why dont you write to DR PHIL and ask him for an adventure for you and your MOMMA or tell him about your CAR situation or even right here and ask THE DRS for full check ups and spa treatments for you and your MOM? You have been a great daughter and deserve a break!
xox
Wow just keep writing if that is what u are good at.Sometimes it takes a lot of nos to get the big yes.And it is ok to think u can have a big seller,why not.It is so important to think positive even when things are not so positive. Try not to compare what others have.I am not a writter so I give u kudos to realize you have a talent. So just go for it.
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Sheilah
Thank you guys for your positive comments. When I woke up this morning, I felt bad about whining. I mean, I am blessed to have what I got, but sometmes, I just want to stay locked up in a room and sleep. I know it's not healthy. Writing is my outlet for my problems and it's my pleasure and delight. So, today, I will take a nice walk becuase it's raining lightly and I love to walk in that kind of rain. When I come home, I always feel that my spirit has been cleansed by the rain and I feel a bit better. Thanks again for your kind words, it means a lot. Oh, I have written Dr. Phil and I understand that my wants and needs are not as important as the ones he do help. He is only one person and I can't expect him to help everybody. If it is meant to be, it shall.
YOUR JUST AS IMPORTANT THAN ANYONE ELSE
GO TO TWITTER AND FIND DR PHIL HE HAS ACTUALLY TWEETED ME PERSONALLY ITS FUN AND MY NAME ON THERE IS ECENTRIC GENIOUS BE MY FRIEND AND FOLLOW ME ON THERE AND THEN FIND DR PHIL AND FOLLOW HIM THEN TWEET" HIM YOUR STORY ABOUT MOM DAD MOVING BACK IN ETC> I WILL HELP YOU!~
xox
If it wasn't for bad luck, I would have no luck. I feel for you. I have reached a point where I am tired of being depressed. I decided that s**t happens. Regardless of my plans and asperations it happens for a reason. I am still learning to bite my tongue and except what comes my way. Obviously, God has a different plan for me. Maybe you can try it to and see how it works. I seem to be less depressed when I realized that some things are just out of my control. Good luck
If it wasn't for bad luck, I would have no luck. I feel for you. I have reached a point where I am tired of being depressed. I decided that s**t happens. Regardless of my plans and asperations it happens for a reason. I am still learning to bite my tongue and except what comes my way. Obviously, God has a different plan for me. Maybe you can try it to and see how it works. I seem to be less depressed when I realized that some things are just out of my control. Good luck
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