Like a lot of people, I looked back to see of I am better off than I was a year ago. I have to say yes. things are still very hard, especially if you simply don't know about the future, and you are frighten everyday of your life that you won't be able to climb that next mountain. Don't get me wrong, I am going to try every day to conquer, but I am still afraid of back sliding and think I belong at the bottom of that hill.  But I do know what I want to happen in the next six months.  I want to find us a better place to live. I want to find a better job so mom can stop working so much.  I want a full check-up, especially since I have finally admitted to myself that somethng is wrong with me.  I want to get my eyes checked and to get new glasses. I would prefer laser suergery on my eyes so I can know what it's like not to wear glasses, but I will settle for a nice pair of glasses. I want to fix up my little car.  No, not a new one. My Tempo, which I have named Faith, is good enough. She just needs a few things fixed, and dents removed and a paint job.  I was told it would be cheaper to get another car, but Faith called to me and waited for me to be able to buy her. So, I have to keep her.  besides, she is easy to work on! I have more to add to my list but I won't until one task is done first.   I know I need to get focused. I havn't written anything more on my latest book.  I know if I had my head clear, I could finish it in one day and move on to the next one.  There are so many waiting to be born!