Hi All, long time no write.  I've been trying to cope with things here. One good thing was I got a good enough deal on a ticket for my mom to go to Florida to visit her sister on the 27.  She will be gone for two weeks.  This is her first time going on a trip that didn't involve her saying goodbye to a dying sibling.  When she comes back, we will work on...

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Hi all!  Things are not better, but not worst either.  I was told that my car would cost more to fix than it's worth.  So, it was patched up so I can at least drive it for a while. I am fighting very hard to stay here, meaning not letting my mind drift back to my pretend home on the beach. I have, in my weaker times, stayed there for hours.  I remember coming back...

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So, tody is one of my depression days.  I did get my car into a shop that I trusted.  I figured that I would be able to pay the money to get it fixed, and still have some left over to go toward my mom's trip to Florida next month. Why did I ever think something would go my way for a change?  The person doing my car called and said another part was needed for...

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I read a lot of blogs today about people, mostly women, who have symptoms of things that doctors can't identify.   I know I have those problems and am afraid that the doctor I have now will think it's all in my head.  It wasn't before and it isn't now. Anytime you feel physical disscomfort and have physical evidence of something, can't be in your head.  So, most of the time, when I have unnamed symptom,...

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Since my car is down again, I am having to walk more.  I really don't mind, tne  weather  hasn't been that bad.  I have some really good shoes for walking.  But, an old problem happened again.  I was up walking from my nephew's house to work early one morning.  It was still dark , about 5:15.  I only had 1.2 miles to walk, mostly down hill.  I paced myself and didn't rush.  but, just about...

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I didn't think my year would go out with me fighting to stay in the present. I havn't had to fight this hard in a long time.  My car broke down again.  I was lucky enough to have a family member willing to come get me and to take me to work. My sister came and took me home, but the next couple of days I need to be at work at six in the...

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Sorry I haven't written for a while. I have been going through weird times.  I have a new granddaughter born August 26 of this year. Her name is Keanna Ruth. Her mom was kind enough to let me be there with her and my son. My other granddaughter was there too, but in the waiting room. She's fourteen know and was having strange feelings about seeing a baby born that wasn't from her own mother....

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Well, I am doing a bit better since I doubled my meds. I know you are not suppose to do anything without consulting a doctor but since my mom takes the same meds, I changed mines to two per day instead of one.  Now, my glucose level is steading dropping.  But, I am suffering one of the side effects.  I bet in teh past week I have lost ten pounds to the toliet.  I have...

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Well, I have been dealing with something new but not entirely unexpected.  Last month I had been going through alot of things with my body.  It kind of started the week that I lost my appitite for sweets. I was eating a small bowl of ice cream when suddenly I realized I didn't want it.  During that week, I drank mostly water or unsweeten teas.  I drank soda once in a while but never a...

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Hi all, I know, I haven't written lately.  We just moved from a large three bedroom two bath house, with my so, granddaughter, mom dad and me, to a two bedroom apartment with just three of us, ,mom, dad and me.  The rent is cheaper but the place is small.  I already miss my back and front yard.  Still it's okay, it has to be.  I am in one of my depressed moods, I am...

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Hi All, I am sorry, it's been a while but things are hectic.  I think we have found a smaller p;ace for me and my parents to move into.  We will be viewing the place on Saturday.  If we can come up with the deposit and rent, it will be a done deal.  I told mom not to worry.  Each time we were in need of something, really in need, God provided.  I know this...

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Thanks Labelfree.  The past few days have been tough and I needed a friendly voice. I have an appointment on Friday the 13.   I haven't heard anything yet from Sheldon, but I know the he must have tons of letters to read and to think about.  I watch both shows when I am home.  Watchng them sometimes makes me feel a bit better about my life.  Even though, like today, I feel down and out,...

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Thanks for all of your comments and suggestions.  They helped alot. I just wanted you to know that I am trying hard to look after myself. It just isn't that easy.  I don't have good insurance and I am still paying for the last time I went to the ER. I don't think they took me too seriously because I was hurting so bad in my joints and couldn't stand to sit or lean.  My...

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Hey everyone!  I haven't written lately because of all of the things that has been going on at home.  I have a question for any of you out there.  I have been experiencing some weird things lately. I think it's because I may be going through menopause.  I just had a period for the first time in three months and boy was it heavy!  But, I have been having headaches more often, and wtih the...

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Last night it happened again where I found myself standing in front of my window, crying. It was about 2 in the morning and I don't remember getting out of bed or anything.  All I know is the pain in my heart was real.  Now, like before, I am dealing with a very bad headache. I usually have to darken the room and cover my eyes and wait for it to pass.  I take the...

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Like a lot of people, I looked back to see of I am better off than I was a year ago. I have to say yes. things are still very hard, especially if you simply don't know about the future, and you are frighten everyday of your life that you won't be able to climb that next mountain. Don't get me wrong, I am going to try every day to conquer, but I am still...

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