So, it has been a while, I know.  I am thouroughly agrivated right now. What started out as me going in for stress and exhaustion has turned into one ordeal after another. (see previous blogs)

Well, since  then, my doctors have switched my muscle relaxer/anti-anxiety medication and while it does seam to help with the shaking, It knocks me out cold.  Also, since they weren't seeing the results they wanted on the one anti depressant, they added Abilify (?) which I took for 3 days, I started having major muscle aches and woke up with muscle spasms again.  So of course they took me off that, but apperrantly that isn't even a known side affect of the abilify, at least not that the nurse or Doctor I spoke with today knew of.

I feel like I am back at square one.  We continue to try to treat my symptoms, the shaking and muscle spasms, and the anxiety, however I still have no idea what is causing it, which is thouroughly agrivating.  I can't beleive that it is all in my head.  And so far the Doctors have told me it is, anxiety dissorder, then clinical depression, then bi-polar.  I just want to feel better, which is why I went in for help, however, one and a half months later, I feel worse then I did when I went in.

What is worse?  Not being able to stop crying when you have no reason to cry, or having muscle spasms, shakyness, body tremors, pain for no reason, and no explanation except that my body seams to reject every other medication that is tried, so we have start back at square one again.  i don't even know anymore, I just want answeres.