this may just be me venting right now but i need to i keep doing research and going to my dr.'s and i'm getting no where when i joined the army i jioned as a career i didnt expect this and for yrs i have been hurting and never conneted the dots during processing when they do your bllod work and update your shots i told my drill sgt i had already had my vaccines i got a number of vaccine shots thought nothing of it til now , when i gave birth to my daughter shawna in 99 my ob dr gave me the vaccine for the measels because my blood work showed no anitbodies for it and 3 days after leaving the hospital i was back in and quarintined with a full blown case of the measels . when i was at ft jackson i remember the tear falling down my cheek so honoered to be a part of something bigger than me and doing something to save my family , tragidy had hit my family and my world had fallen apart and here was my chance to fix it all make it whole again . during processing i was once again given a slew of vaccine shots and didnt know i was getting sick i'm one to ignore pain and feeling uky well first day of training we had this girl young female who brought everything from home and as our company had taken all their equipment up the hill on macgruder to the 2nd 485 she couldnt get her stuff so i carried my things and helped her carry her equipment carring nearly 200 lbs on my body i felt something in my hips but i ignored it and moved on i continued going ran at pt did our morning work out and i hurt but i kept going i wasnt going to be an older soldier complaining of aches and pains i had to keep going my family needed me i needed this my life was going no where getting divorced no where to turn i was going to keep pushing on i had to this was my last chance to make something of my life then i had what i though was a cut yes on my bum and my battle buddies noticed it seemed to be getting infected , caples they said you need to go to the dr sgt or we will go for you so i had to soldier up and go , i went to tmc and was given an ointment for the "rash" but i was given antibiotics via iv because i was running a fever and being treated for bronchitis not aware that it could be shingles . as soon as i was given antibiotics my mucsles locked up tight stiff and so painful then i was sent to have xrays and dr.'s found my knees where shattered and my hip they thought the head was broken mri's then showed it was erroded 5 months of physical therapy water aroebics still i hurt but i start getting better but i still hurt i just ignored the pain and pushed foward first sgt said perhaps the army wasnt for me and i tried but i was determined to stay in i was under alot of stress no idea what was going to happen then one day i was climing down from my bunk and my hands went completly numb couldnt feel anything and i fell hurting my legs again and once again back on crutches my hands where swollen but never thought it was shingles i was already in pain couldnt figure it out , went had an mri done of my hands and the saw what looked like small cycts nothing to be concerned about i get out and in 6 months i end up back in the hospital i had gone to the dr cause i had been sick for over a month my husband and i where still seperated and i was a single mom working under alot of stress but david was coming around and forced me to go to the dr who noticed i had a serious infection going on and put me on anti biotics strong doses to keep me out of the hospital we just thought it was a urinary tract infection but as soon as the anti biotics where in my system every mucsle in my body locked up and i was hurting i was in so much pain i was loosing it i called david to come get me if he didnt hurry up our chances of getting back where over i go in wiht 104 temp its been like that for a month i ignored the pain cause i was always hurting every day doctors do cat scan to tell me i had diverticulitis treating my sysmtoms i couldnt afford the colonoscapy but i lost my job thank God david stepped in i had lost continance and he was willing to help me but after that i was never back to my old self and the cycle continues from 07 til jan 09 i had no medical insurance going to the er assuming it was all my hip and my knees dr told me i'd have to see a pcp or a primary dr with no insurance where was i to go when my va disability with the va was approved i could now see a dr i keep going cause i hurt and i dont feel like myself they tell me theyu cant find anything and send me to mental health i went to the social worker to find some one to talk to because by now i know i'm suffering from severe depression , why bother i hurt and no one hears me then during the swine flu epidemic the doctors tell us if we have flu like symptoms get it checked so i went to see the dr at the va i didnt get my usual pcp dr and figured while i was being treated for the flu lets see about this rash well honestly i thought it was a spider bite i've had this before 4 times since i left the hospital in 07 but when the dr told me it was shingles a light came on i realized i had had a blonde moment what spider or bug is going to bite you in the exact same place over and over and now i continue the fight i research shingles and the nerve damage it causes and what i call grtound zero my left hip always hurts and still no one listens i'm taking eldaberry juice to help me and its helping some but some days are better than others and i'm just sick so sick and tireed of feeling so tired so slugish wanting to do so much i know the depression effects me and the pain and the stress of me being unable to work and my home not being up to par i'm now getting so tired that i have days i pray for death just to come because i know my body and i'm so tired of fighting and no one hearing me no one listening i cant afford a second opinion and there is so much red tape with the va my husband is tired he works and works but he is only ne man and he does so much and i'm such a burdon on him and he's become such an amazing man we never divorced this actually has brought us closer but i'm so tired of not being heard and hurting and being tired my life has been hard before this and i was tired before and now i dont know how much more strength i have to keep going through this i'm isolated from the worldbecause i cant get around and just having help its not there i'm tired f hurting all the time and i have no way of going to see another dr for a second opinion so what do i do from here other than hide from my kids so i can cry all i want to do is cry knowing no one hears me
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when it comes to the va i have seen many ppl get the run around , how many times i've heard if you think somethings wrong see your doctor but the va doesnt want to find anything wrong that would mean they would actually have to treat you . i'm new to this site but desprite for help my dad and i have done alot of research but where to go with this info. i've started a regiman of elaberry juice and it helps some but i'm not back to my normal self and i'm so use to being independant that its driving me crazy and i'm not supose to get upset cause it triggers shingles so its an endless cycle some times i feel like i have no hope i already know there's no cure its just managing it but how do you manage something no one wants to help you with?
I'm so sorry you're going through this. It kinda sounds like what I go through. I have an autoimmune disease called Sjogren's Syndrome. They did a blood test called an ANA on me. Maybe you could ask your doc to do one. I'm just a lay person but autoimmune diseases can take six yrs to diagnose cause the doc is not thinking about it and the symtoms mimic other things. Just a thought. Take Care.
i am under going alot of blood work the problem is dealing with the va i have had the shingles rash pop up many times in the exact same spot the problem is the va , i started pushing the issue about my treatment and now my doctors keep canceling my apptments so not only am i fighting this virus trying evry day to cope with it but i also have to fight the va and the funny part it was the army who gave me the vaccines with the viruses that are now taking over . funny thing is had it been treated , the shingles in the first place it would have been just 1 time ordeal but because it wasnt i developed a neurolocical problem and thats where its making it difficult i have had this untreated for 3 yrs and now i cant get the help i need to control it and its causing severe depression to the point of not wanting to get out of bed or even take anything to help myself because its become so exhausting . ive the the research i've talked to my dr and the va liason and because i cant work i cant afford to go to another dr and i'm in a loop and if this continues with out being maintained its going to take over and kill me ....ha and every one wonders why i'm depressed .....i'm so angry but i can get myself upset cause stress trigges this and the cycle begins all over ..........i've written the show but no response
yes i did they have made a few mentions of shingles but nothing about the complications like Postherpetic neuralgia which is what makes getting shingles so dangerous sad thing is had i been treated the first timeand the dr at ft jackson it would be over but due to lack of medical assistance and trips to the er in pain and all we thought was my original injury 3 yrs of the virus going untreated and Postherpetic neuralgia and one i'm still learning about its what causes the swelling the Postherpetic neuralgia is the dangerous part cause it starts the nerve problems but slowly startes effecting muscle tissue and if your out break or rash is internally it will effect vital orgins and why its so agrivating to get the run aound from dr who dont care and dont want to connect the dots and when you finally do they dont wanna face their own mistakes and because of our finacial situation we cant afford getting a second opinion getting upset or angry only compicates the issue because the virus attacks the nerveous system so if i get upset i hurt more and the virus parralizes me i have seizures from the pain its like charlie horses in my face arms legs and yes i hurt inside i strated to write this blog to cope but its my only way to get my voice out i have days when i'm scared and some days i wonder if its worth fighting i cant afford medical care and the va doesnt care last night my left arm went cold then i felt nothing and it wasnt cold in our house i had to get the heating pad out and my husband was rubbing my arm trying to bring back feeling my right arm did the same last month no tingling no numbness just nothing i feel so lost unheard and in soo much pain feeling useless and just waiting for something to happen
when you push your apptments get canceled or there is nothing availible and my husband has noticed the anti depressants they have me on to keep me mellow ( they are making it about my moods ) is making me even worse emotionally i cant fight much more been feeling hopless and lost and tired sat in the kitchen crying my eyes out kids wanting to go to sleep but never waking up and i was remembering about the chinese water torture and how it drives ppl crazy and thats exactly what this is doing to me friday i was crying on the phone with my dad this isnt me this illness have taken my life my spirit and it breaking me a little more and mor each day , its funny i didnt feel so lost and depressed even when my son died , i mean i was heart broken and it hurt but i morned him and moved on went on with my life 2 yrs later i had another child my last one but these days i cant find anything to pull me out of this i hurt all the time and its wearing on me didnt even take the eldaberry juice which helps the swelling and other stuff just stopped caring but if i stop caring who will fight for me who will be here for my kids and i breath in and push i seriously think this medication could be making me suicidal but i cant get the va to listen to me and to tired to search any more so i write and i write and i chat and try to enjoy what i can
Holy cow! I feel terrible reading this. I hate the fact that you aren't getting anywhere with the VA. but the bottom line is you want to feel better. I see you have tried some natural products (elaberry juice). I don't know about all of your problems but I think you may get some relief if you try the mangosteen fruit. I hope you check out the information a make a decision. helendunn.mymangosteen.com I would recommend that you see your doc, but doesn't seem like that is working for you right now.
thank you so much i'm going to look into that , i got a call today from an army buddy of mine a freind of mine who bunked by me died her husband saw her nose bleeding and went to help her to find she was dead , ruby had so many surgeries for spider bites over and over i'm getting letters together because we thought my rash origanaly where spider bites ..... i cant believe ruby's gone she's my age out of no where when we where in we got the run around and we didnt always see doctors for stuff we where seen by techs not even nurses we always excepted the pain from our original injuries but anything else was just ignored . i cant believe shes gone
OMG!! You certainly have had your share of bad times. My heart really goes out to you. I only hope that your life will soon turn around and you can get on with your life. It seems like you have lost so much time. If you have any questions once you get on that website. You will see my name in the upper right hand corner, you can email me from there. I pray for your recovery.
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