Well its that time of the year and my team the Eagles whipped that Carolina butt.  Anyway thats my only salvation from a miserable life.  I cant get over my depression and especially my appearence.  Im really to weird and/or ugly looking.  I tried to shave and really need facial hair to balance out my bad looks and try to make it seem that my turkey neck, lack of chin and lack of jawline are not so bad.  My nose however makes it impossible to big and pointy and actually longer on oneside.  Im truly lost and i dont want to give up.  People try to give me positive advice, compliments, etc but I dont know if its just they feel sorry or what ever.  I hurts and i wish i could change things but money seems to be the motivating factor instead of just being good at heart and helping people. Well my vacation is over which i didnt do much but stay in and try and rest.  Now i have to face people at work that just laugh and talk about me behind my back then are friendly to my face.  Call it what you want i know it happens.  I really try to be nice and help and thank people at work im not mean but i find my day goes better if i just dont talk and stay to myself.  In meetings people stare at me or if im talking they stroke their chins or neck when they look at me and while they talk to me very frustrating.  I guess the best way i can compare what im feeling is if you ever watched austin powers where the guy has a big mole on his face and they just stare and pick at him and say weird things.  Well thats every waking moment for me.  i wish there was help and not just oh your fine because no matter how nice and/or genuine they are I find no comfort in it.  Wish me luck as the week starts iI will need it.  Thanks to everyone on here that i have had the pleasure of knowing.  Thank You.  I know how hard you guys try.  Take care and have a good week.