I completley understand this problem.  I was badly burned on my chest when I was only 2 years old(I'm 40 now).  I did grow up with people looking at and asking about my scars, even making fun of me.  I also had a very dysfunctional family which only added to my feelings of worthlessness and insecurity.  I was obsessed with plastic surgery and had procedure after procedure to try and overcome these feelings.  It worked for a little while....but I always came back to the same dislike and rejection of my body.  These feelings do lead to suicidal thoughts. It's like a dark cloud.  I also separated myself from people and found myself very envious of people that i thought had perfect features.  I have been on anti depressants(zoloft & wellbutrin)which has over time greatly helped me.  I also found that keeping my mind activley engaged in work outside of my home took my thoughts off of myself and all of my perceived flaws and helped me to feel much better.  I still struggle daily some days are better than others but the tormenting thoughts are not as strong as they once were.  It has been a slow process but I am much better.  Don't give up there are many like us out here that struggle with these thoughts and feelings.  Trust in God, pray and don't ever give up.  God Bless You.

We're not here to give sympathy hee hee hee we're here to tell you, NEVER give up!  As I said on your other blog people who have to go around and belittle other people are not worth your while.  You are gold.  Stay that way. 

Hey  im glad you posted again !   We are all here for you, keep smiling and blog often its like a releasse >

Sorry I haven't been on but thanks to everyone who has given me a positive outlook, even though it only last for  lil bit.  Like i said im trying but i can't shake the feelings.  I've joined The Doctors because i listened to them on the radio at work and heard about their wonderful makeovers.  I thought that they could help me but my e-mails go unaswered.  I will keep trying.  Although my frontal picture looks ok its my profile pic(sideview that is terrible.  I've had kids laugh at me and i got the nerve to ask them whats so funny ....they played it off like they were laughing at something else but then they said its because i look like a turkey or somthin.  Man!  I just wish there was someway out of this hell because wasting my life is all i seem to be doing.  I had to drive around the block at the gas station waiting to play lottery because there were so many people.  Again thanx for all the positive feedback.  Its good to know that there are good people in this messed up world.  Sorry it took so long for me to accept friend request.  I look foward to tyalking to you guys and thanks again.  My name is Matt btw.

Hi Matt !!!!

hi gelatinus alibaba here thanks for you coment.i under stand were you are coming from its a hard life.haveing some one do sonething like that is so soul distroying.you didnt need any of the s--t .all you neded was a clean break.as for your daughter? there are ways to find out to put your mind at ease. im always here for you to talk toif you need me .do you know when you talk about your face .you dont like it ,well i have a big nose witch sticks out when you lok from the side .i hate it but i dont let it get me down .i know its easer said then done .

hi gelatinus alibaba here thanks for you coment.i under stand were you are coming from its a hard life.haveing some one do sonething like that is so soul distroying.you didnt need any of the s--t .all you neded was a clean break.as for your daughter? there are ways to find out to put your mind at ease. im always here for you to talk toif you need me .do you know when you talk about your face .you dont like it ,well i have a big nose witch sticks out when you lok from the side .i hate it but i dont let it get me down .i know its easer said then done .