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I've been depressed for years and dont go out or take my kids anywhere.  I get my groceries at 6am on a monday just so i dont have to  see people.  When im out in public people stare and make jokes.  Other people just laugh or look at me like they are going to vomit.  I  wish i could get a nose job.  Im living in a hell that i cant get out of.  I just would like to be normal.  I've been trying to find a doctor but people just seem to enable me.  I know people wispher and chuckle.  Is there any way out besides suicide?

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lisabethk

SUICIDE IS  NOT AN OPTION !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! please !!!!!!!!!!!! dont think that way you have joined a great site and there are many people here that can help you  you .  You have 2 kids  and ghave a full life ahead of you. many people i know including myself take antidepresents . Mine works very well for me . I was on the edge due to my illness of menieres.  I used to think people were watching me and laughing. because of they way I would walk with my cane. I dont care what people think anymore the heck with them/. From the picture i see you look good. There are outlets people you can call  and speak to. vent on here we are all here to help you break these thoughts .Your a striong person to even admit it on here thats step one. step 2 asking for help youvedone that now move on to step 3 .find a dr in your area that will listen to you possible a counsler.mine worked wonders. You just go in and talk they listen and ask you several questions. PLease no more of that S word !!!!! hang on  !!!!!!!!!!!!

Brightest blessings

lisa                    

sludge

Lisa is right, you are special in your own way.

Don't let other people dictate what you feel

an think. you deserve a life an so do those

two kids. Put all your  energy into them, they

are only kids once, speak to a doctor and tell

them that this is a concern for you. Be good

to youself, noone is perfect. Sludge

oddonezzz

Your nose looks pretty normal to me, I don't think I would laugh or stare at you if I saw you in person. You will probably never see the people in the store again and if you did, they would probably not remember you. So who care what they think anyway? Suicide is not the way to go. Your 2 children are depending on you and love you no matter what you think you look like. Stay on the site for a while and you will find there are lots of things about you that people like and they will give you good advice and support while you work this out.

Looking forward to hearing more from you.

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SpryLilLady

You have two kids, find contentment in that and know that there a so many people on this site that are hurrahing for you for every little thing you accomplish in a day.

YOU ARE PERFECTLY FINE and don't let anyone belittle you because of a body part!  You know what? The general public amaze me.  People are so unhappy in their own lives that they have to do whatever they can to bring other people down.  The happier or more content you are in your own life is when those "miserable" people come and attack you from all corners of the universe.  You face those people and tell them to stuff it.

You are worth more than ignorant people's stares!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cheers,

Sini

Vicki Clark

First and foremost suicide is never a way out....the fallout of those actions would continue to effect your family for the rest of their lives, and I'm sure you love your children far to much to put them through that much pain.

I think the picture you have posted looks quite normal...I would not laugh or make jokes if I passed you on the street and I'm sure most people out there would feel the same way. If there are people who do make you feel uncomfortable, consider the source, as their actions are the result of their own lack of confidence and or maturity.

Put the game controller down and take your kids outside to play....you will all be happy that you did......and hey, if you are unhappy about your appearence, do some research about procedures you are interested in and set up attainable financial goals to make them happen in the future. :)

If you continue to have feelings of suicide...please seek professional help...and keep your Dr. informed about the reactions you have to medications they prescribe....they will adjust your treatments until they find one that works for you.

All the best in life to you and your children!

Vicki

 

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