I am a 52 year old woman, married for 33 years.  We lost our only daughter to suicide 16 years ago and have been living through that nightmare ever since.  I am currently dealing with deep depression myself & my husband is border line bi-polar.  His problems are a large part of the depression I am dealing with.  We are struggling to keep our marriage together now.  He has severe cardiac problems & has been forced onto disabliity...another cause for his emotional problems.  Our financial situation is not great due to this and we struggle every day with just surviving.  I have faith that God will see us through if we allow Him to...but He will not force His will on either of us.  So, husband may be leaving but can't make up his mind.  That's the hardest part for me, the not knowing.  I know I sound totally negative, but there are some good things going on in my life now too.  I am one of 8 children and we are very close.  I am blessed with numerous neices & nephews, loving sisters & caring brothers.  I pray dailey for strength & gjuidance for each & every one of us.