I'm SO glad St. Louis finally put this show on at a normal time of the day.  It used to be on at 1:00 a.m. ONLY.  That was not a re-run time; it was the ONLY time.  I could only see it here/there if my baby happend to wake up at such a time.  Now, starting this week of 9/7/09, it has been on at 9:00 a.m.; a much more appropriate time to see such a wonderful and informational show.  Thank you.

I am an almost 38-yr-old mother of 3 (born 4/02, 11/05, and 11/08).  I've been a stay-at-home mom ever since my first-born.  I used to do medical transcription prior to that.  My husband is a chef at a casino setting.  He works many LONG hours and we don't see him as often as we'd like to.  But the kids and I get along doing what we must to keep our lives going the best we can.

I, personally, am very stressed a lot on/off.  I think the ages of the kids have something to do with it.  I think my very strong-willed children have something to do with it.  I have on/off bouts of where my diagnosis of Depression "flares up" and I feel horrible.  This happend to me just two days ago and I went through the day and just could not control the tears from falling down my face.  I felt like I was NOT crying; it's just something that happens to me every so often.  I like to say "The Happy Pills aren't working today."  If anything, I wish the Doctors and/or Dr. Phil could help me in that area of my life seeing if there is anything internally that is out-of-wack.  I really feel lonely, isolated a lot of the time, yet keep on going and going to do what must be done for our household.  I've tried to participate in Depression survey's to try another medication but always get denied (probably due to my other medical condition ON PAPER of a seizure disorder that's been controlled for years now, but I still take meds for that as well.)  I feel trapped within all these medical conditions around me and don't know if I can escape them.  I sure would like to though because I just go day to day being the best mother I can be and don't foresee much more a lot of times.  It's very hard for me a lot of times to accept that this is all there is for me.

I would like to continue some more education perhaps at a community college even though I did complete a 4-yr college.  I haven't been in the work world for 7.5 yrs and feel I probably wouldn't fit in with the changing times.  I am not thrilled with the idea of going back to a sit-down typing job of medical transcription; I'd like to pursue different avenues perhaps still within the medical community.  I want to see if there are any at-home studies I can possibly do as my recent child will still be at home with me for a few more years before I can pursue full time employment once again.  I think a lot of my Depressive symptoms comes from being Bored due to being home all the time as well.  Also... we have NO family in our area whatsoever too; I really am very alone.  I wish we could move to Michigan near my family where there are "cousins by the dozens" and very caring family and friends who could possibly help in my troubles.  My husband would have no problem moving there either, but he needs to find employment first; a job where he isn't taking a pay cut.  Times are SO stressful these days due to the economy as they are for everyone.  Those of us who suffer from the true diagnosis of Depression just don't seem to "accept" things as they are.  I know I don't; though I try so hard to deal with it even if I do walk around all day with a wet face.  Oh how I wish I could get more support with this issue of my life.