I am blessed.  I have a supportive husband, loving 23 year old son, many caring friends, Church family  and a wonderful extended family.  I lost my mom "best friend" in July and have used eating to deal with the grief.   I am addicted to sweets. I have gained 15 to 20 pounds since the funeral.  I have struggled with my weight for as long as I can remember.   However, it seems this time I cannot get started/motivated and just continue to gain.  I have flucuated between 140 and 180 pounds since the 6th grade.  At the rate I am going I will be 200 pounds by this time next year.  At 53 years old I cannot tell you how many times I have promised myself that I will lose the weight and keep it off...way to many times to count.  I am hoping the 2011 will be the year that I lose the weight and learn to keep it off for the rest of my life.  As I type this letter I am actually getting excited and feel hope.  PLEASE help me lose the weight once and for all!  I will be so grateful to you all.