If your thryoid is out of whack it is probally why you are feeling like you are.

YOU WILL GET BETTER TRUST ME.

KEEP POSTING.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

JUST KEEP GETTING LITTLE BOUTS OF PAIN OUT>TRUST ME I HAVE BEEN HERE AND YOU WILL GET BETTER TRUST ME.

HIPPA LAWS HIRE OR CONSULT AN ATTORNEY

CALL JAMES COURTNEY ESQ 

HE IS IN FLEMINGTON 908-782-5900  Tell him His faithful devoted favorite client who owes him 14K who promises to pay him as soon as she can and will needs you to have a free consultation to SUE ROBERT WOOD JOHNSON AND THOSE DOCTORS  HE WILL SEE YOU FOR FREE

STOP THE INSANITY TAKE CHARGE OF YOU AND THIS SITUATION AND GO GET ALL THE ANSWERS AND SUE THE SHIT OUT OF THEM YOU HEAR ME GIRL!

YOU HAVE A FREE ATTORNEY WHO IS REMARAKABLE AND WHO WILL MOST LIKELY TAKE YOUR CASE ON A CONTIGENCT BASIS>
BE CLEAR WHEN YOU GO AND SEE HIM!

xox

IT GETS WORST

IT has been 3 years

TODAy the suite is over if I didnt serve the persons.

I just cant do it.I am too ill

TELLING ME it will get better

time..

IT HAPPENED IN 2006

its 2009

I am OLD I cant function and no one will listen to me or believe me

I am going to explode uppon myself.

THE ability to serve them has expired,

The day was today

I had to serve it was dismissed today!

HE WILL NOT nor would not I went to severail,

I Paid 7500 to one the one that LIED

I really cant take lies anymore

I am going to die.

Do not say to me that I WILL GET BETTER
I WONT

I am dammaged goods

I just cant deal anymore with this unless a dr gives me a honest

admit..and I can find out how I can be in charge the HIPAA IS BS

the ADvanced directives

a DNR..all bull crapp

You still might have time.

If you are starting therapy and in/or therapy you "discovered" abuse or something to this affect than the 2-3 year law is not in order.

Make the call.

You may still have time. Have some hope.  Even if it is a string of hope.

You have some sort of drive in you.  Your here.  You are creative,  You are smart.  You are your Father's daughter arent you?

There is light left inside of you and you now have me believeing in you too.  Your not left alone anymore.

BREATH.

BREATH.

Your going to be alright/alright!

xox

THREE YEARS..I HAVE NO HOPE OR HELP.

DO YOU THINK I HAVE NOT TALKED FOR THIS TIME?

I AM AT THE END

I AM SITING LONGER AND MORE.I LOST MY MUSSCLE

I HAVE NO STRENTH THAT FREAKING DOC TOOK MY BLOOD MONTHS AGO

NOT ONE FREAKING WORD THAT MY THYROID IS OFF! DAMIT
I CANT TRUST THEM
WHY SHE DIDNT GIVE ME MY BLOOD TEST I HAD TO GO RETRIVE IT FROM THE LAB! 

I AM A FAT UGLY WORTHLESS PIECE OF CRAP

I AM MY FATHERS DAUGHTER

Honey you havent met damaged goods until you met me and NOW I HAVE BEEN REPAIRED.

COMING FROM THE HELL CHILDHOOD I HAD YOU HAVENT HAD HELL.

YOU TALKING TO SOMEONE WHO HAS COMEOUT OF HELL and it took since 2005 to pull myself out of that BULLSHIT TRAP SO KNOW WHEN YOUR SPOUTING WHO YOUR TALKING TOO>

YOU CAN AND WILL get out of this space.

ONE DAY ONE HOUR sometimes one frickin minute at a time.

GET THAT THYROID CHECKED.

GET A CHECK UP FROM THE NECK UP

GET SOME SLEEP

DONT SELF MEDICATE

MEET ME HERE TOMMOROW WITH NEWS FROM THE DRS

DONT DO ANYTHING STUPID.

Go to DR PHIL www.drphil.com and find the depressionboards if you cant hold on thru the night there is a list of 800 numbers to call out throughout the night yto a voice on the otherside of the telephone to help you deal.

But realize your not unique,  and people just like you ME and others have been in the darkest places in life and have pulled ourselves out and become productive members of societie telling others YOU THAT THERE IS LIFE AND LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL BELIEVE IN MY WORDS AND HOLD ON TO THIS MESSAGE OF HOPE BUT IF ONLY FOR THIS NIGHT>
NOW GO TO SLEEP>

TALK WITH YOU IN THE AM

xox

By the way those pictures didnt scare me.

Are you scared of you?

Are you saying you are planning to kill yourself?

Got a plan?  Or are you just being creative in the middle of the night?

Its early am did you make it?

Write back if your still alive.

We all have medical problems that other's can either understand or empathize with but no one truly can understand just how we truly feel about those problems ( no offense to Pinkers or Labelfree because I know where they are coming ) all we can really do for one another is listen and lend a sympathtic ear and word when needed. Know that you are wonderful, even if you don't see it we do. and we will be here for you whenever you need to vent we are good at allowing others' to use us in that way. I know you have a trust issue yet if you would like to continue to post we will be here for you anytime you need us, so please use us.

                                                Carrie

I have just left the Drs.

She said" who told me my blood work?

I said YOU!

she was like your right your

THROID IS OFF

I told her I have lost 3 full months sitting more than ever

I CANNOT STAND THIS CRAP

I am not a PHD

I counted on her...she read it to ME

DOes anyone TAKE ME SERIOUSLY

I TRUSTED HER TO  PAY ATTENTION RIGHT?

She ws very kind to me??/

I HAVE COME from HELL 

MY mother ABANDONED ME AT like 10-11 yrs old!

Came home from school and she took the 2 young sibblings

LEFT ME AND OLDERR SIS BEHIND

6 months I heard nothing!

she is drunk

I am sober

SOBER
allmost 17-16 years

aug 22 1991-92?

DAM I HAVE BEEN RAPED

ABUSED

BEAT

CHEATED ON

NEGLECTED

MY MOTHER GAVE ME OD OF PHENOBARBATOIL WHEN I WAS LIKE 8 MONTHS OLD I SLEPT FOR 3 DAYS

SHE NEEVR CARED

NOW SHE AND MY 4 SIBBLINGS ARE ALL JUST FEAKING PEACHEY

I HAVE NO ONE

IT IS WHY I CAME BACK TO NJ

CAUSE I THOUGHT I WAS SAFE FROM THE SH**

AND I WAS WRONG IT TOOK 2.5 YEARS  TO BE IN THER

DAM FAMILY CRAP!

NOT THAT IT WAS NOT FOR THE 2.5 YEARS

BUT I HAVE ESTRANGED MY SELF

I AM ISOLATE

MY PHOTOS ARE NOT SCAREY

ACTUALLY THE 2 OF ME ARE FUNNY.MY FATHERS PHOTO MAKES ME IL

I HAVE HIS BED SORES I WILL NOT LOOK AT THEM

LINDA 

I requested you to be my friend here

How can I help you?

Please respond.

Are you coming here just to unload your mind?

There are a group of woman who post regularly who are really cool who look after eachother here who really really care no kidding.

Also over on www.drphil.com over on the depression board I have been posting for years since JUNE 2005 that place actually saved my life.

Nice group of woman over there too.

IMO there is a difference between dumping andpouring everything out of your mind and actually taking a proactive role and making your life better.

Which is it for you?

I hope you sticj around and decide to improve your life.

I am so sorry for your pain.

Also Carrie I am sorry if it seemed as if I was being insensative if you picked up on that I surely wasnt.

I just didnt want BUSYGIRL to harm herself and to be honest I AM NOT A TRAINED PROFESSIONAL OR A DOCTOR  just someone who has been in the swirls of black depression trying my best to help her!

xox

Sweetie change doctors now. Don't wait any longer. I had an abusive doctor myself. I finally got away from the grip he had on me.  I've been through hell and back all my life and I'm still hanging on. Don't blame yourself. Start walking. It's so good for you. I just went for a walk myself. I feel very alone too. But, I keep hanging in there.  Get into some therapy.  Honey, don't do this to yourself, life is worth living. You will find things you enjoy.  Please don't give up. I witnessed my mother's murder at age ten. I was such an emotional wreak and they didn't have the therapy they have today. I wasn't even sent to therapy for two yrs. I've suffered alot in my life but I didn't give up. You can be my friend anytime. My name is Faith

wow! This is a very deep deep and serious, emotional situation i feel you are crying out for help so bad yet no one heres you  but they do, an they are sincere. Talking about it is good but i know it certainly doesn't make the pain go away does it? I'm sorry you are struggling so bad my thoughts go out to you. Margie