I am a housewife that is home all day. I try to keep a neat home but lately unable to due to my health. I am so ashamed of my life. I cry all the time I am sick of feeling and being sick. I am married to my husband of almost 45 years. He works out of state so he is not home all the time. He was gone for a year and half and then now he is working closer to home which is better but we fight all the time. I have 4 pets. I love my dogs they are great and keep me company and help me feel safe. I wanted to take a class in photopgrahy but was unable to due to cancellation of the class. Oh well I can not afford to pay for a class. My body looks like I am 90 and I feel way too. I just am at a loss of what to do with my life and my depression I do see docs on a regular basis and I am on meds to combat these problems. I also see a therapist but I am still feeling very down. I do not know what to do. There are days I wish I could just go away and not come back. I do have 2 chldren one lives in our area the other is out of state. When I had the stroke I had a friend that was worried but out of state and contacted my daughter in law and she refused to come help me. I have been bullied all my life and it just seems to be getting worse as my life goes on. My grandchildren range in age from 21 down to 2 and I have one great grandson I just never allowed to be around them alone I am not allowed to see them at all. I am lost just so lost. I just can not keep going and going. Please help me if you can. I am so done with all of this and family cutting me out and for what reason? I also just lost my mother and my father, then my loved dog and as of recent my best friend of 40 plus years to cancer all over her body. What really hurt that not one person called me at all to tell me I had to find out the hard way. I am just hurt on how people treat me. I am not mean nasty yelling screaming or any of that. I am just done with my husband and the rest of the family. As of today I have told them all that via facebook. Thank you for you kindness and reading all my woes.