It's 4 am and i can't barely walk to the bathroom. My hands are swollen and tight and my legs are screaming. Barn is flooded and so will have a lot of work today. Don't know whether to try to sleep more or start drinking coffee. Glad to have my horses home. The sky opened up with rain and lighting as soon as we got home. Soggy first night. The dogs lay quietly beside me....

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Hardly slept at all last night. Like a kid waiting for christmas! Going to pick up my horses today! Hope the big truck makes it all the way! Am loaning one of my existing horses to their therapeutic riding program. Hope he does well. It's cloudy outside but the sun is shining on me! Lots to do this morning before i leave. Hope everybodys day is filled with laughter and happiness. (man i love what...

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It's a beautiful day today, as good as yesterday. I can live with more days like this! My pain comes and goes, mostly there in the morning. I try to be patient with myself and allow myself the time i need to get going. Planning on mowing today, which i dread. Seems the vibration of the mower doesn't agree with me lately. But, i'm gonna do it cuz if i don't keep myself busy i'll...

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First i'd like to thank everyone for their support. For some reason right now i am unable to upload pics or edit my info, but am working on it! Bear with me. Today i woke up and don't feel so bad. Before i went to bed last night, i took 2 ultram, 2 flexeril, and 2 aleve. I was expecting to be sore as i had been shoveling clay into horse stalls yesterday. Was a...

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So here goes my very first blog. I find myself utterly depressed the past couple of days and wonder if i even have the right to be so. Lately i live on muscle relaxers and mild painkillers just to function. I used to be so active and worked most everyone i knew, under the table. Not sure if my depression is part of my disease or just an effect of it. Trouble is, i don't...

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