I am a wife, mother of one son, and grandmother of three beautiful grandchildren.

When I was in highschool, I always saw myself as fat - but when I look back now, I know that I was thin (108 lbs).  It surprised me, when in my senior year of highschool, I was voted "best physique" out of all of the girls in my senior class.

I now weigh OVER 100 lbs MORE then I did in highschool.  So, knowing that I have been carrying the title of 'best physique' all of these years, I have NEVER gone to a highschool reunion because I am embarrassed by the way I look.

Mirrors..forget about them - I can't stand looking at myself.  Pictures...forget about them - I don't allow anyone to take my picture (my profile picture was a HUGE fight just to get me to pose for it).  My grandchildren aren't going to have any pictures of me to remember me by, nor do I have pictures of me with my grandchildren. 

I won't allow my husband to see me nude, or touch me because of all of my fat, so obviously, there is a strain on my marriage as well.

On the inside I cry everyday.  I know that I can never get back down to 108 lbs, but I DO know that I can be MUCH thinner than I am now.  My husband travels a lot for his job, I was laid off two years ago and am having a difficult time finding another job, so I find myself home alone a lot, and find that the nights are the hardest, and that is when I find myself eating out of total boredom.

As of right now, all my (health) numbers are good, except for cholesterol, which is slightly elevated, due to heredity.  I KNOW that I need to do something before my numbers start changing, before I come down with diabetes (which runs in the family), heart disease, etc. 

About 1-1/2 years ago I joined Jenny Craig, and lost 28 lbs in a month; however, my mother passed away, and I never went back.  I also joined Curves, but again, when my mother passed away - I lost all control of myself as far as weight and exercise.

I KNOW I need to lose weight, I KNOW I do, but I find it SOOOOO difficult to do.  I'm finding it VERY difficult to get back on the road to good health - even tho I know that's what my mother would want me to do. 

Please, please help me.

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Kind regards,

Sandy