Rainbow, You are really in a hard place. You really need some help. I hope you meeting with the social worker is of some help, but let me offer some additional ideas. It doesn't sound like you have any friends. Do you go to church? Do you have a church group that might be able to help you out? I don't know how old you are but if you are older, some communities have departments on aging that have many different services available that might help with some of your stress issues. You do need some one just for you to listen to you and help you psychologly through this trying time and your medicade should help pay for some counciling. When your income becomes tight, there are programs out there to help with food and rent and you should not feel badly in taking advantange of those programs. In addition to taking care of your mother and your sister you need to take care of yourself and it sounds like all of that is a big job. Good luck and God bless you. Barbara