Linda, I just want to say I am sorry to read what happened to your Father.  I can also say I am glad he is no longer in pain.  Unfortunately you are the one with the pain now..... I remember once reading something like.... "Do you want to spend the rest of your life mourning the loss of your loved one, or celebrate the life that they lived?"  Truly the choice is yours.  I know the loss of a loved one is extremely hard.  We tend to mourn the loss for ourselves, not them.  They are in better places... places we can not go yet.  They are safe from harm and we are not.  We should truly be happy that our loved ones are in such a place.  I know not being able to touch or speak to them is a burden that sometimes becomes so hard to bare.  I truly wish you all the best.  I know you have questions and anger that no one can answer or take away.  Please understand, God loves you and maybe he took your Father because of the circumstances.  Think of it as him taking mercy on your Father's earthly body and releasing all his pain. 

 

God bless you.  I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. 

 

~Lisa