Sondra,

Mine spiraled out of control like your did, re:suicide attempts when I was 22...lasted 3 years but finally got my act together and it's been 11 years since the last attempt.  Life has gotten better, with ups and downs, but I realized life was too important to leave.  I did have God on my side though because there was a time when I almost didn't make it.  I was lucky, almost lost a kidney, part of my liver, but everything kept  getting better so I didn't have to experience those types of things.  Those days are over though and I'm finally me again!

Melissa.

I had a very active life, but with people who can leave a negativity in your soul.  Then someone else does the same and on and on.  I was 52 years old when I attemped suicide.  Bless the fact that I truely beleive that God is the only reason I'm alive.  After my two attemps that evening,  failure hit me even harder.  I couldn't even do that right.  With great counseling and family support, I am happier than I thought I could ever be.  I know if I could have known more about depression and anxiety my life  wouldn't have spiraled out of control.

SondraG

Melissa,

Just to let you know you are in my thoughts!  You know, doctors don't always get it right the first time and different things work for different people.  Be patient, hang in there, and keep searching until you find the right answer for yourself.  With all the stressors in your life, maybe some of the symptoms of what you consider "mental illness" are just actually symptoms of the stress or depression.  Keep on loving yourself as all of us here love you.  Reach out,  Reach Up, but Don't Give Up!

Peggye  

Hi Sheilah,

I posted a blog about what the surgeon said today--basically a definite hip replacement.  Thank you for thinking of me--that meant a lot to read that.  I see another surgeon this monday the 16th and then surgery end of April/beginning of May.  Tomorrow I have Primary appt, psych appt, interventional radiology appt and the iron infusion.  I'll be home in the afternoon though and will be on the board.  Thanks again for thinking of me.

Melissa.

Mellisa just a quick Hi and let you know I am thinking of you. I am very excited to find out what they start friday. remember do what is right for you and try any thing they ask of you. It may take a few times of different meds to get things right but maybe you will be lucky to get things right on the first try.But remember just keep trying and know we are here for you and your big break is just around the corner.You didn't get here in a day and it may take a little time to get back on track.But at least you are at the starting line. Have a great day.

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Sheilah

Hi Bobbie,

I will keep you up to date--I see the  psychiatrist Friday AM and am hoping for some sort of positive outcome.  Thank you all for you thoughts and prayers.  They are much appreciated.  Thanks for reading what I wrote!

Melissa.

Melissa, You are a brave woman.  What you wrote made sense.  It is just hard to imagine, not being in your shoes.  God bless you for your strength in seeking the help you need.  I am sorry you can't work but I am happy to hear that someone who actually needs it is getting ssdi.  As Sheilah said, we all have our crosses to bear and no one can walk in our shoes.  We can only continue to offer continued support.  We hope you find the right meds for you.  You will be in our thoughts and prayers.  Keep us up to date.  Best of luck, bobbie

Melissa Great for you to even realize that maybe your meds are not right.I think that is great. Most people would not even be able to tell there meds where not right or that their mind is racing.

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Sheilah

Sheilah, thank you.  i will continue to post and all.  I enjoy this board. I do have things to look forward to, things I havent encountered yet mainly.   I am no longer able to work, and it's not because I don't want to--I really honestly cant.  And my psychiatrist said if the symptoms would go away I would give the go ahead for part-time simple job but other than that you cant work -- and he isnt holding me back, don't get me wrong, just when you have constant auditory and visual hallucinations and constant echoes in your ears (although I just woke up so everything is ok for once), -- I cant separate real from not real--I am still re-learning that; because I never told anyone about the voices and stuff for 4 years, certain things are embedded in me that are wrong, and I am resensitizing myself a little at a time to real life again but need to see things sometimes to know if it is real/true or not (I hope this makes sense).  There are other reasons I can't work and right now things are going ok, so we are kind of watching things--meds are a tad unstable but are working the best they can under circumstances given.  I still need another med to slow my mind down a little bit, and will probably get one Friday when I see the psychaitrist.  I am on SSDI to support myself.

To Labelfree--I totally understand what you wrote.  It is hard to believe doctors get paid from putting a label on someone (I'm talkng psychiatry mainly because it isn tfdefnitive like srep throat, ie, would be.).  I don't like being labeled either--it's not fair.

OKAY pls everyone let me share my experience as to WHY MY NAME IS LABELFREE!~

So many labels were placed on me and so much therapy  etc...

Besides having an MRI OF A BRAIN to detect Pyschophriania (SP) pls for give my typos  The test will indicate frontal lobes looking like a butterfly.. 

THERE ARE NO OTHER TESTS  genes or other wise to DETECT MENTAL ILLNESS....

All other meetings with therapists  and or doctors are all SUBJECTIVE to the info you provide them in order to deduce a LABEL.....IE  depression # 439715.9 according to the BIBLE HANDBOOK DSM 

The depression and the number are just used as examples.  My husband has this book so if you want me to look up something I will be more than happy to do so for anyone.

DIAGNOSTIC SEVICE MANUAL which they take your label and your number  Your specific illness and BILL INSURANCE companies  for $$$$$$!~  THAT IS ALL..

I have heard of these blood tests  ie for having breast cancer gene or other various other genes to see if you carry a gene for alzhimers etc  BUT NONE that I have come in contact with regarding MENTAL HEALTH except for ALZHIEMERS.

I am not angry as I type this I am upset because it took me 14 years to uncover the truth of this despeptive practices.

xox