Hi, I'm Kyrsten and I was diagnosed March 23, 2010. I made the mistake of seeing a family doctor to see why I wasn't having periods. At first I thought it was normal! I thought it was irregularity. I haven't had a period in almost a year. I started to realize something was wrong. While talking to the neighbor one time my mother pulled me aside and told me to go shave because I had hair growing on my chin. I felt that was awkward and what really lead me to go to the doctor was getting the hair removed, because it was embarrasing! My doctor wanted to draw some blood so I let her. had I known how she was going to diagnose me, I would have gone to my OBGYN right away. My doctor called and told MY GRANDMOTHER... Who is not on the list of people approved to know whats up with my appoitments. My grandmother told me when I got home from a long day at work. I knew nothing about PCOS thanks to my doctor, who left no facts other than my testorine was really high.

I looked it up on the internet and I cried, I cried myself to sleep the night I was diagnosed. I went into a depression that lasted more than a year. I did what I had to do and got on birth control and went (reluctantly) for an ultrasound. I thought it was an external... but again my doctor suggested internal as well. I'm 20 years old and a virgin(proudly), but I was drop dead terrified to get an ultrasound done internally. My sonographer was really great and talked to me through the entire thing, I left not feeling so violated. I started seeing an OBGYN, and She's pretty cool as well.

My biggest concerns and I wonder if people can answer this for me: What besides shaving can I do for the hair growing on my chest, back, stomach, chin, cheeks, and neck. I've been shaving it for a while but every time Im standing in the mirror, looking at myself shaving my face I try so hard not to feel shame; but it still sneaks up on me and that little personal demon gets me to convince myself that no one will love me because I grow hair where a man should. I'm not skinny, but I'm not fat either, I'm in the middle... I weigh 240 pounds and that humilates me the worst. I'm petrified to step on scales in public, like at the doctors office or dentists office and I've cried because of the humiliation before.

I hate seeing the OBGYN because I don't like being looked at or touched and I don't see a purpose for it.  Though I do understand it's nessary. I haven't been following up on my OBGYN appoitments because I'm scared and I know I will never recieve the news that it's gone away. I gave up hope of ever having children and have brought up removing my ovaries. But my obgyn shoots it down every time. She won't remove the ovaries of a 20 year old. I gave up on finding someone who loves me the way I am; but I'm terrified that I'll end up lonely but the prospect of finding a great guy and him leaving me because I have PCOS makes it even harder.

If anyone out there has PCOS, please e-mail me... Anything! I have never talked to another person with PCOS. Is there an alternative to being prodded and poked? How often do I have to go to the OBGYN? Please, contact me.