I am a 44yr old single, female, part Native American, with two outstanding sons. the youngest is playing baseball for the University Of Little Rock, Arkansas; the oldest resides in Dallas with new wife; whom graduated with honors from Oklahoma State University. Both boys are certified fitness trainers through NASM. My oldest Bray did his internship at Baylor Hospital, in Dallas where he works part-time, along with recently getting hired at TELOS as a trainer and health promoter. I must say I have some terrific kids. 

I live a rural area, located McAlester, Oklahoma. I have a Master's degree in Education/Technology and work fulltime as a behavior health rehap specialist. I own my home of 20yrs; but having a desire to go live among the world more. I am a member of Life Church, Community Theatre, and Fine Arts Assoc. I also have degrees in fine arts. I do some local art shows and jewelry shows.

I suffer from chronic pain disorder, due to having a severe car wreck back in 86', where I broke my back and almost my neck. I've been through hell with this back thing. I am pretty hard headed and refussed to have any limitations, which caused my harringtons rods to break, another surgery. I've had a few different surgeries and now have no fear of them. I decided to totally detox off of medications and find another source I could maintain. My painmgmt doctor sent me to florida to a chronic pain specialist. Outstanding! Made a difference in my life! It was quite the adjustment but I manage much better. I never did get along well with medications and hated them. I sure didn't understand about 'my body getting addicted' to them either. I wasn't a pill seeker by no means, someone usually had to stay after me to eat so I could take them. I've been on mild meds since due to the tolerence of pain, but won't increase them. It's cutt everything beyond half of what I was doing. It will be a year next month that I was in another car wreck. I was drivng home from work, driving about 75mph and hit a recliner in the road that fell out of a truck! I don't remember how I got to the side of the road, but I was ok, sorta...my car wasn't. This wreck really has rocked my world. The PTSD I had put away, was back strong n heavy, to painful to do much, have like whiplash neck, my hips have always been out of line, but I'm in a lot of pain in my core area. I broke L1 L2 in my first wreck. It's just been a hard road! the weather is so my ememy, the cold in Oklahoma is not good for me. I cannot handle stress at all without my body shutting down.

I really try to hide these symtoms from others. I look like I am perfectly fine. 

Ok, there could be more about me............which maybe I can write later. I really would like to write a memiour or something. I know I am a resilent woman due to all the things I live through. I'm a very nice person and I seem to get crapped upon a lot. I swear I've wanted to write Dr. Phill over some stuff. I've been so abused, mentally, phyically to this day. I find myself isolating in my little house. I really think I may just get a wild hair and move. I suffer from empty nest syndrome as well. I am very close with my boys and they both have such wonderful girls in their lives, they make me so happy and I live down the road from my parents who aren't in the best of health, but mental torute me at times, with my convict brother who takes advantage of them when he can. I suprized I'm not nuts! 

I go to church when I am in town, which I am normally at church every Sunday and if back is willing..on Wednesday too.  I enjoy my artwork, acting on stage and just doing my thing listening to live music and full moons..... I love Sade', blues and jazz, and will treat myself to dinner and music out of town. I enjoy traveling.. it's hard to keep a good woman down!! 

Ok, enough of me.................