I'm a widow.  I was married for 22 years to the best man that God ever put on this earth.  I have 3 wonderful children (22,20,18).  So much has happened in the last year & need to get back to my healthy lifestyle, so that I have the energy to deal with my depression.  I was probably in the best shape of my life, until April 2010.  I went into a deep depression and have stopped going to the gym & really watching what I eat.  I have gained 35-40 lbs...which has only made me feel even more depressed.  I want my life back!  I NEED my life back.