I am a 45 yr old mother of one and have 2 grandsons ages 2 and 4  I love to ride motorcycles and make others happy! I recently hit a severe time of depression and I am on Anti-Depressants but it blocks the real me. I need a healthier way of getting me back. Thinking of Sam-E or St.Johns wart. I recently ended up back in Texas with daughter and grandsons hopeing it will help me come back to normal. Tho I miss my parents in Alabama and the beauty there. I am a big believer that god is getting me better and not the anti-depressants so I am trying to ween myself off these pills. I WANT TO BE HAPPY AGAIN!!!! I think this whole depression thing was brought on by menapause which I have not been checked for yet. Believe it or not one of my mothers relatives got menapause and ended up in a mental hospital leaveing behind two kids. I think she is still there and her kids had to grow up with out there mother. I can't understand how menapause could be so powerful to actually ruin ones life. I hope that doesn't happen to me. I will continue praying about it. I have picture on my myspace of my beautiful daughter and grandsons just type my first and last name in search.