Its been a while since I have blogged anything.  Been lots of ups and downs, mostly down.  Been so rough and getting rougher each day.  The pain from the physical stuff has increased, while the finances keep dropping and dropping.  Disability was denied again, but that is to be expected. As the lawyer said, it is a long drawn out process, but in the meantime we are drowning here.  It"s hard to keep the spirits up when everything is against you.