Today I watched the show and saw The 17 Day Diet Challenge. I was thankful that I was not going to have to attempt the diet like everyone else. I was on the road to bariatric surgery and waiting for insurance approval. I had jumped through all of the hoops and though I was on the path to a new me.
After watching the show I called Aetna to see if they had mad a decission. Well the answer I got was not the answer I was hoping for. I was denied! After 39 years of weight struggles, PCOS, bad knees, bad back, borderline diabetes, and so much more they turned me down.
I sit here writing feeling like I have already lost half the battle. I had been planning on surgery for the last 6 years. I had to wait to go through the program because we were trying to have a child after our son, Andrew, died at 7 days old. I knew that my time was running out and if I went through with the surgery then I would have to wait the minimum of one year after surgery to try to get pregnant. At 34 that was out of the question. So I put off loosing the weight to have a child.
Seth was born on Dec. 5, 2007. He was 5 weeks early and this was after spending more than a month living in the hospital due to complications left over from Andrew's birth. I had packed on the weight between fertility drugs, being pregnant, and then just sitting at the hospital. Seth was worth every pound!
Now, three years later I thought I was finally going to be able to see the person trapped inside of this body that I do not recognize. I was on the road to a healthier me and a new life. Then in a matter of minutes the news started to creep in on me and I felt my life crashing down.
Today I actually considered suicide! I wondered if it would be the easy way out. I wondered if I would feel better on the other-side and if I could be the person I always dreamed of being there. Then I though of my gorgeous little man sitting in the next room playing. A little guy I had tried so hard to have and of 16 year old daughter and 13 year old son. What would I do to them if I went through with what I was planning in my head? Not to mention my husband!
I sat and had a good cry. I said woe is me! I hit the walls! I threw the phone! Then I got off my butt and came to "The Doctor's" site and signed up for The 17 Day Diet Challenge! I will succeed! We all will and life will go on. Maybe in 17 days I will feel stupid for thinking the way I did. Maybe in 17 days I will be the new person I am looking to be.
We are all in this together and I am thankful for a place to go and vent. I am thankful for the friends that I hope to make on this journey. May we all be blessed and successful in our own ways.
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Hi Hansi. I was so concerned reading your blog. I'm hoping you have shared with your husband how you are feeling about being turned down for the surgery. I have read the book and found it very refreshing. It really sums up what we already know. Yet, the author's approach is with kindness and much encouragement that you can't help but believe in the success of his approach. I liked it immediately because it's not a starvation diet. For me, it will call for getting rid of my sweet-tooth and snack-tooth in favor of foods that supports being alive. The author helps you to really look at what we are doing to our bodies and challenges us to step up to the plate and change the destructive cycles. I encourage you to seize this new opportunity as that fresh start on life that you most long for. The good thing is that life is still a day by day proposition and every day a blessing. I know you are a blessing to your family and know its time to be a blessing to yourself. That's what will make all the difference int he world for me. Stay blessed and talk with you soon.
Hansi, I am so proud of you for taking the action that you did! It proves that you are a fighter and will overcome this obstacle! It also shows the true feelings in raw form, of how being overweight can make you feel. I thank you for being so honest and sharing your experiences. Though I know they were rough times for you, they most definitly will encourage others. Plus, I think your kids have a very loving Mother that would do anything for them. Lucky them :)
Hansi, So happy to hear from you. You are my first new friend and this is my first time trying to communicate backto you. Thank you for the lovely comments and I have to tell you how sorry I am that things have been so difficult for you. I know the struggles of disappointment and rejection. I will pray for you and your family. I know how much you were counting on the surgery but I feel there is a reason that you were turned down at this time. I am happy that you have started the 17 day Diet too. I am on my 5th day and have struggled with a few things. Water, water, water! I can usually get down 6 or 7 or the 8th glasses but not all eight. I do enjoy the hot water with lemon in the morning. Raw vegetables hurt my stomach so when I eat the super salad the next two days I'm in pain. I will continue this journey with you and hope you are doing well. God bless you! Laurie
WOW what an amazing story of sadness and stregth, your story is truly the most heart warming touching story I've ever read.
I started the Diet 5 days ago and am down 10 pounds, and trust me if I can do it you can do it. I am a 34 yr old Mom of one son (6) and have been having medical problems that have my Doctors stumped. So I decided to do somehting for myself, maybe it will work maybe it won't, but either way I will find the healthy skinny girl I know is inside of me. (ok maybe not skinny, but much smaller...hehe)
I'm so sorry you have had such a rough go of it, but I believe you can succeed, and made a good start of it by signing up for this challenge.
I look forward to keeping in touch with you. Stay positive, you CAN do this :D
T
Welcome to the site! I know you can do the 17 day diet plan. Keep blogging and posting on the messageboard -- there is so much encouragement here. If there is a problem, just write -- many people may have the same problem, etc. It is a wonderful place to be.
Melissa.
I am joining you today. I have not been employed for over 18 months and, although completed a master's degree in the meanwhile, I am feeling a bit pathetic about my inability of getting a job (and even helpless!). So I just joined the vanwagon...Here I go...It is only 17 days for now!
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