Where do I begin with this? I should probably start with "it shouldn't be happening". Afterall I'm just short of 20, I should be vibrant and healthy and in great shape! I think there may be a few contributing factors.

First, I am a very tense person. I've been in great shape but never able to even touch my toes without bending my knees. This tensity is all I'm used to, having come from a rather dark abusive background.

I got my first back injury when I was 17, at work, and my boss made me lift a very heavy box. Even though I said I'd rather one of the guys do it due to its weight and location, she said I had to comply or risk being fired, so I did. Regretted that. I went home sore and woke up the next day in severe pain, I could barely move without crying, and I'm not one to cry. It was unspeakable pain for over a week, so I went to the doctor. They x-rayed my back and said there wasn't a problem with my spine, it was just a lumbar strain. Of course, the x-rays were all blurry because the technician was gone for the day and they had a newbie replacement. They went so far as to say they thought something could be seriously wrong with my uterus (what the heck, I'm in for my back), but that was certainly wrong as I recently had a baby and the docs here, actual long-time professionals, say I'm about as good as it gets. At least I can be thankful for that. Needless to say, after my boss at work expected me to stand 8 straight hours and lift with a lumbar strain, I quit my job. My parents tried to sue because my boss refused to talk with them or address the injury even though I was a minor.

The injury eventually healed up, but I never quite felt back to tip-top shape, even with very extensive physical therapy. This last year I got yet another lumbar strain, even worst than the first, and almost couldn't bend at all. Any activity was excruciatingly painful: even not doing anything! My doc went to the extreme and gave me Oxycontin. Well, it did get rid of that initial unbearable pain, but I've still been feeling moderate pain ever since.

Now I'm at home, and my back hurts like heck. It's a very specific location of pain, either just to the left or right of the lower spine in 2 areas, and while it's always sore, sometimes I feel a sharp pinch that sends me feeling hurt, stiff, and dizzy. Very dizzy.

Could I possibly have a spinal problem? What could it be? I do have PTSD and PPD, which I know makes it worse, but if it's a specific pinching I tend to think it's something different. The doctors have never been able to find anything though. What could it be? It always feel like something's stabbing into my flesh, or someone with pointed nails is pushing into my lower back as hard as they can.

My doctor wants to prescribe me more Oxycontin, but that's a hard drug and I don't like taking medicine if I can help it. I see it as only delaying or putting off the problem when I want the problem itself addressed. Where do I go from here? It's so immensely frustrating as because of my back problem now I can't work or take care of the little one by myself.