I don't have time to deal with nor want to deal with bull in my complicated rushed life.  I have strived to make the people around me happy, not only do I make them unhappy i am also very unhappy.  I have tried to just mind my own business so I no longer hurt other I contect with.  I would love to leave behind and end the pain in my life but the pain I have caused (not meaning too) in peoples lives I have touched, but some how am too weak to do so, here I sit wasting away.